Yaawwwnnnn or some such day

a lazy friday this, a day for contemplation..a day for thinking and a day for absolutely not doing work.Interesting aint it..how one automatically shuts off their working mode in anticipation of a weekend...well,at least i do:)
morning began with me having one of those deep talks(which i really cant have with many people cause my focus on any particular topic would be precisely for 10 seconds!!)...i was arguing about how i hate the Alchemist cause i didnt think i had gleaned any info from that 'oh so awesome' book..and i still wonder on that!!so this rather intellectual guy related that book with my own life...in the sense that one really has to tread the path less travelled by(one of my favorite peoms from school)...and discover for urself whether u belong there.
i had a Brobdingnagian (nice word that huh) opportunity for making modelling a career..a rather contradicting thought for me actually..i wanted to dive in and yet did not..and finally didnt. i loved designing clothes..won a few awards..could have pursued it but didnt.i used to sing lustily at college..was recognised as being greatly talented..have not done anything about that either.
why..why is it that i have refrained from following what my heart wants me to do?why is that in my case my brain always rules my heart?is that the same with all those people i see around me who follow their mundane lives just cause that horrid brain instructs u to do something all the time?i mean it should be true if i come across people who are unhappy with what their lives have become (in a not so serious way but rather,oh god yet another day of tiresome labor!).
everyday when i listen to Radio City in the morning when i chug along in my company bus..i get almost green with envy thinking how awesome these RJs must feel to have chased their dreams?!and i heave a sigh of woe and carry on for work.
its a dangerous thing to think so much..and i guess thats a prime reason why i would love to sit at work the whole day not giving me enough time to actually think about certain things.things backfire..just like a certain episode last evening..leaves a very bitter taste in the mouth...and u think..solitude is such a nice thing..but why do i not have it in me to embrace it forever?all i would probably need is a book and solitude..they would not cause me any problems..they wouldnt expect anything out of me..i wouldnt expect anything out of them except probably from the book(:))!i think i will try really hard at working on the latter...with this thought in mind..ill proceed with the day.